Soon

When I come back I will be

Better for having gone

With your eyes you told me

You thought I was wrong

I know that life gets harder

Before it opens up

I know the sky gets darker

Before the night gives up

I know that hope is stronger

Than these boyhood wounds

And we won't wait much longer

Because it's coming soon

And we          won't hold it inside

Anymore,      anymore

And we've     no need to hide

Anymore,      anymore

When I'm gone I'll still hear

Every word you said

When I sleep I will dream

I'm sleeping in your bed

I know this pain is part of

My own emptiness

I know I'm at the start of

Finding what I've missed

I know that love is stronger

Than these empty rooms

And we won't wait much longer

Because it's coming soon

And we          won't hold it inside

Anymore,      anymore

And we've     no need to hide

Anymore,      anymore

Anymore,      anymore

I know the past is full of

All of our mistakes

And the more we dwell on it

The more it takes

I know I have a hunger

And I thirst for you

But sometimes I wonder

If we'll make it through

I know my faith is stronger

Than this doubt of wounds

But if I touch your hands I'll

Know that you're coming soon

And we          won't hold it inside

Anymore,      anymore

And we've     no need to hide

Anymore,      anymore

And we          won't hold it inside

Anymore,      anymore

And we've     no need to hide

Anymore,      anymore

I know that hope is stronger

Than these boyhood wounds

And we won't wait much longer

Because it's coming soon

Old Journal Entries: Vol. IV

Journal Entry: 7/4/2007 “In My Own Company”

I feel like I’m much more insightful by myself.  I have a better understanding of people and the world when I’m alone.  I have a better understanding of who I am.

When I’m by myself, out running, riding in the mountains, driving for miles in solitude, I feel like I know me.  I get around others and I’m not sure what I’m supposed to be.  I want that to change.

Tonight Lace asked me what type of personality I have, whether I’m better in groups, or one on one.  I don’t know.  I rarely spend time alone with one other person.  It made me wonder how I would be on a date.  Am I the kind of person that someone would just want to get away from, or could I actually communicate on a meaningful level?

I feel the main draw or appeal of a one on one relationship, as shared by a boyfriend and girlfriend, is that you’re aware that this one other person finds you fascinating.  Man!  Wouldn’t that be neat?  To know that at least one other person thinks that you are more interesting than all the other people?  I can hardly wait!